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“I’m so, so sorry about that text, Brynn.” I feel the tear run down my cheek and then Brynn grabs my hands and pulls them into her lap, making me turn my body so that I can face her, though I still can’t look her in the eye.
“I was a dick and an asshole. Amber didn’t like the fact that I was still talking to you after we were married. She thought I was cheating on her while she was pregnant.” I roll my eyes at the ridiculousness of that. Amber knew I would never cheat on her, but she thought getting pregnant would make sure we’d be together forever.
“I always wanted you in my life and I figured after the girls were born, Amber would cool her fucking jets and stop being a psycho. Instead, she left me to take care of two girls without her and I lost everything in the process.”
I was so pissed off at Amber for everything she did to me, but couldn’t regret my time with the selfish bitch because I had my two beautiful girls because of her. I finally chance a look at Brynn. She has tears streaming down her face and a sad look in her eyes. I reach out to wipe the tears from her cheeks and she turns her face into my hands and bites her bottom lip.
“I’m so sorry, Brynn. After the girls were born I searched everywhere for you. I called your old number, but you must have changed it after you left. I talked to Jake,” I grit my teeth together just saying that asshat’s name.
I knew he cheated on Brynn when we graduated and I had tried to talk her into getting rid of him, but Brynn had told me that he was going to ask her to marry him, and she didn’t see any reason to wait to start her life. I thought he was a dick and secretly hoped that she would never marry him.
Brynn lets out a small giggle and sniffs, slightly wiping her nose with the back of her hand. “I asked your college professors if they knew where you went. Hell, I even went to your parents to ask them.” Brynn’s brows pull together and she stiffens.
“What did my parents tell you when you asked them?” she questions. “Uh, they told me they didn’t know and that it was better to leave it that way.” I always thought they told me that because I had hurt her and they didn’t want me to find her, but the hurt and upset look on Brynn’s face tells me otherwise.
Knowing I had just dropped an emotional bomb on her, though, I figure we should leave her parents out of the conversation for a while. “I’ll never be able to apologize enough for what I did to you, Brynn; but I want you to know that now that I know where you are, I won’t let you go again.” And I am dead serious.
Chapter 11
Brynn
Wow. He looks dead serious. “I’m not going to lie to you and tell you that text didn’t hurt me, because it did, Ryan. It killed me to know that you were cutting me out of your life.” He looks down at his lap and nods, and then looks back up at me with sadness in his eyes.
“That text” I continue and shake my head, thinking back to the day I had received it and what happened afterwards, “was the worst and best thing that ever happened to me.” I bring half of my mouth up in a sad smile. Ryan just looks confused, so I sigh and then offer an explanation.
“It was about ten seconds after you sent the text that I lost it. I was at school, so I talked to my counselors about transcripts and transfers; I broke it off with Jake and when he tried telling me that we were going to get married, I threw it in his face that I knew he was sleeping with Melanie.” I shake my head and let out a small laugh, remembering the way Jake’s face paled when I told him I’d caught him cheating.
“Then, I applied for every out of state school I could think of just so I could start over. Two weeks after we last talked, SDSU gave me a full ride scholarship because of my grades, and I snagged all the money I had saved and moved down here with the knowledge that I got to start my life over; or actually got to start my life.”
I look into Ryan’s eyes, trying to figure out what he is thinking, but can’t pick out anything except sorrow. He wraps his arm around my shoulder, not sure if he’s trying to comfort me or himself.
I figure I should change the subject and try to lighten the mood a little, so I say “I can’t tell you how shocking it was to see that I ran you over with my bike. Fate is a curious thing, isn’t it?” I laugh. “I didn’t think I would ever see you again. Figured you and Amber had at least four rug rats running around and she was a stay at home mom while you worked some luxurious job to bring home the bacon. I’m sorry your life didn’t turn out that way.” I shrug at him, while he tilts his head and lowers his brows.
“Why would you be sorry that my life didn’t turn out that way, Brynn? That sounds like a horrible, boring life.” I laugh and he pulls me closer to him, so that I am practically sitting in his lap.
“I am so glad my life didn’t turn out that way, Brynnie. I would be miserable. I was never in love with Amber and knew that I was just marrying her for the girls; I think she knew it, too. That’s probably why she checked out when she did. I shut down from her after she made me stop talking to you. I actually hated her after that, but knew I had to be civil, since she was my wife and all.” Ryan’s eyes crinkle in the corners as he smiles.
Then he looks down at our hands, which are now clasped together in my lap. “It’s always been you, Brynn. It’s only ever been you that I’ve been in love with.”
I look down at our entangled hands and nod slowly. Those were the words that I had waited since third grade to hear from this man. I clear my throat and say “I have a confession to make.” Glancing up at Ryan, I notice his face pales and he looks like he might throw up.
“Oh no, it’s nothing bad!” I say, and he lets out a puff of air and his shoulders slump down. I chuckle “I haven’t had an actual boyfriend since Jake. When I broke up with him and moved down here, I figured I could start a new life and find a great man that was faithful and honest and loved me. But when I started dating, I could only go out with them a few times before I realized that something big was missing from all of them.” I lean my face closer to Ryan, so our foreheads are touching, and look into his eyes.
“The thing that was missing from all of these different guys was that they weren’t you. I have been in love with you for I don’t know how long, and even though I’ve been trying to tell myself for the past eight years that you were gone and I needed to move on, I just couldn’t. I think I was always waiting for you.” Ryan lets go of my hands and touches each side of my face, pulling me closer to him.
“I can’t thank you enough for waiting, Brynnie, but I won’t make you wait anymore.” Then his lips are on mine with such tenderness, that a tear rolls down my cheek.
The first thing I notice is that his lips are so soft and sweet that I could kiss him forever and not get tired of it. The second thing I notice is that this kiss isn’t one of those awkward friend kisses at all. His kisses feel right and have more passion and feeling in them than any other man I have ever kissed.
Instead of breaking off the kiss, Ryan’s lips become more hectic and I feel his tongue lick across the opening of my mouth. I moan softly and give him what he wants, touching my tongue with his. One of his hands moves from my left cheek to the back of my head, tangling with my hair and bringing me closer for our kisses, while his other hand slides down the side of my body until it’s tight against the small of my back.
I love how he keeps a tight grip on my back, but I want to be closer, so I shift and straddle his lap, placing my hands on his shoulders.
“Oh God, Brynn. Baby, you have no idea how long I’ve been waiting for this moment.” Ryan says in between kisses. When his lips move to my neck, I tilt my head to give him better access and smile. “I do have an idea, Ryan. I’ve been waiting probably longer than you have.” To that, Ryan playfully bites at my neck, making me squeal and push away from him.
Chapter 12
Ryan
Fuck! I have been waiting to have this girl since middle school; since I knew what sex was, really. Brynn keeps grinding on my dick while she’s kissing me and it’s driving me crazy. Despite the fact that it has been way too l
ong since the last time I got laid, this is my Brynn, the girl of my dreams.
My cock twitches and grows harder just thinking of getting her naked and under me. When she looks at me, and those big, beautiful blue eyes connect with mine, I realize just how in love with her I really am. There was never any other woman that could have compared to Brynn. No one else stood a chance because this girl is perfection to me, and I will not let her get away from me this time.
Just knowing that makes me want to be inside of her even more. I lower my hands and squeeze her small, but firm, ass. Brynn gives me a smile that makes her whole face just glow, then lowers her head to lick the side of my neck and I groan.
She tilts her lips back up to my ear and says “Ryan, I want you” before she nips at my earlobe. I close my eyes and try to focus so I don’t blow my load already, but that is the sexiest thing I’ve ever fucking heard and I’m dying to get inside her.
I pull my face away from hers so that I can look into her eyes and ask “Are you sure, Brynnie?” I want to make sure that she wants me and isn’t just doing this for a good time or because she wants revenge for the past eight years. Brynn nods and then pulls her arms away from my neck.
She reaches for the hem of her purple tank top and pulls it over her head and to my surprise, doesn’t have a bra on. Fuck. This woman is perfection, including the perfect size of her breasts. I lean forward slowly and start kissing her collar bone, and then I make a path of wet kisses and licks down to her left breast.
I take the small, pink nipple into my mouth and about come on the spot. I groan as soon as I taste her. Dear God, she tastes so sweet that I don’t think I’ll ever stop sucking on it. I move my hand up to the other breast and start pinching her other nipple.
Brynn is whimpering above me; her hands keep rubbing the top of my head like she’s trying to grab for hair to tug on, but my buzzed hair is just too short. She reaches down and tugs on the bottom of my shirt, the universal sign for “remove this right fucking now”. I stop long enough to lean back and rip my shirt off, but then go right back to sucking on her nipple.
“Bedroom. Now.” Brynn manages to squeak out, so I stop sucking on her breast and wrap my arms around her perfect ass, then stand easily since she weighs next to nothing. I basically sprint to her bedroom and set her down on her feet so she can remove her shorts and panties.
After they fall to the ground, I watch as the most beautiful, bare pussy ever comes into view and I spot a tattoo there. She shoves all of her rumpled up sheets to the side and sits on the edge of the bed. I can only stare when her long, slender fingers reach for the button and zipper on my cargo shorts and I feel my dick strain against the fabric as she pulls them down to my ankles. Brynn then frees me from my boxer briefs and then wraps her small hand around my dick and slowly begins pumping. All I can do is close my eyes and tip my head back, because if I watch her jerk me off, I will lose it quickly, and that would be beyond embarrassing, so I try to hold off as long as I can.
Chapter 13
Brynn
Wow. If I would have known that he was this endowed I might have caved and taken advantage of him last night. All I can think of is how he would taste, so I lean forward and put his length in my mouth.
The second my tongue comes in contact with the head of his cock he growls loudly and threads one of his hands into my hair, which is quickly falling out of the ponytail. He starts pulling on my loose brown tresses softly as I wrap my mouth around him and start to bob up and down.
After a few minutes, Ryan wraps his arms around my biceps and sits me up. “I can’t take it anymore. You keep doing that and this will be over far quicker than either of us wants.” His ice blue eyes pierce into mine for a minute, and then he kicks his shorts and boxers across the room and drops to his knees, nudging my thighs apart. I decide to lean back onto my elbows so I can watch.
I’m sure he must see the tattoo I have above my bare pubic bone because he licks it and then turns his head and kisses the inside of my thigh a few times before putting his mouth where I want it the most. We both let out a loud groan and I put my hand on the back of his head. I wish he had longer hair so that I could pull on it a bit, but quickly forget about his hair the second he looks up and then inserts a finger inside of me; it feels incredible.
“Oh, God.” That’s all I can get out. “You like that, baby?” Ryan whispers gruffly, inserting another finger. I mewl and nod because I have somehow lost my voice, and any coherent thought for that matter.
”Good God, Brynn, you are so wet and you taste amazing.” Ryan’s fingers start pumping faster and he puts his mouth back on me, using his tongue to put pressure on my clit. I writhe below him and start panting. A few seconds later, my vision goes white and I’m screaming his name as I explode around his fingers.
Ryan keeps sucking and pumping until I’ve come down from my orgasm, then he removes his fingers and puts them into his mouth, sucking my juices off of himself. God, that is so hot. He stands up and lifts me to the middle of the bed, then positions himself above me, his cock right at my center.
Ryan kisses me a few times and I moan while I taste myself in his kisses, then he lifts his head and looks into my eyes; his light blue eyes a more intense color. “I don’t have any protection on me baby. Do you?” “Uh, no I don’t have any condoms on me, but I’m on the pill and I’m clean. What about you?”
Ryan smiles and pushes my now loose hair away from my eyes. “I’m clean. I got tested not too long ago.” Normally, I would never trust that. Even if a guy swore up and down he was clean, it wouldn’t happen without protection, but this is Ryan and I have always trusted him with my life. “Good, now get inside me” I smile, and then wrap my legs around his waist, using the heels of my feet to push on his muscular ass.
Ryan lowers his body and enters me. “Jesus, baby! You feel fan-fucking-tastic, Brynn” he groans while he slowly pumps into me. I kiss him on his now swollen lips and then lean into his ear and whimper “Harder Ryan. Harder!” Then his body roars to life and his body pumps into me relentlessly.
The only thing I can hear is the slapping of our skin, panting and the occasional growl from Ryan. We’re both starting to sweat and my body is tightening, which I think Ryan notices, because he says “Come with me Brynn. Are you ready?” I can only nod.
I put one hand on his shoulder and the other I put between us so I can rub my mound because I’m so close to exploding again. I start to tense and in the blink of an eye I’m coming again, hard. Ryan pumps into me two more times, growls, and then his body tenses for a few seconds, then slumps down and his head tucks into my neck while tries to slow his breathing.
After he rolls over and is lying next to me, with an arm draped over my belly, he huffs “Fucking hell, Brynn! You are the sexiest woman on the planet, you know that, right?” he says, nuzzling into my neck. I giggle and say “You aren’t so bad yourself, handsome.”
His chuckle vibrates through my body. “Not so bad? That kinda hurts my feelings. I was looking for something more along the lines of ‘Ryan, you are the best lay ever’, or ‘Oh my God, Ryan, that was so amazing and I want to be your sex slave for the rest of my life’.” I throw my head back against my pillow and belly laugh at his comments.
After I’ve wiped all the tears running down my cheeks from laughter off of my face, I lightly kiss him and decide to joke with him. “Well, it was very amazing, and you’re definitely in the top three of best lays ever.” I’m not about to feed his ego and tell him that was the best sex I’ve ever had in my life, even though it’s true.
His eyebrows raise and he smirks. “What? Ouch baby. That hurt my heart just a little, but I guess I’ll just have to up my game next time.” I smile and place a small kiss on his lips for saying that he wants to be with me again. Ryan smiles and softly rubs my arms, then says “Just for the record, you are the sexiest, most talented woman I’ve ever known, and best lay I have ever had.”
“Well, thanks so much for that compliment. I didn�
�t even use half of my game that time, so you’ll be in for a big surprise next time.” Ryan’s eyes widen and he leans in and gives me a deep, loving kiss.
Chapter 14
Ryan
While I’m kissing her and wishing this could last forever, I remember the tattoo I licked, but couldn’t focus on when I went down on her, and that she has others in hidden spots, and now I want to explore. I break the kiss and smile while scanning her body for all thirteen of them.
“What are you looking at?” Brynn says with a laugh. “I want to find all of these hidden tattoos you have.” “Good luck, Chuck” she smiles. Challenge accepted. I remember seeing one on the top of her right shoulder, so I pull her into a sitting position and see one that says Que sera sera- remembering that means whatever will be, will be.
I lean her forward, also remembering the one I saw on her back and see Accept no one’s definition of your life; define yourself written in big, black curly lettering on her right shoulder blade. I lift up her arms and see that she has two Greek letters, I’m assuming her sorority, inside a pink heart outline about the size of a quarter, on the inside of her left bicep. “Like, totally cute Brynnie!” I say in my best valley girl voice when I point to the tattoo.
Brynn laughs and says “Like, thanks! All of the girls in my sorority except two have them. One was too scared of needles to do it and the other was really religious.” I nod then say “Three down, ten to go” I say, smiling. “Have fun” Brynn adds and then giggles.